TITLE: Giving Up
AUTHOR: Ragna (writinggoddess@aol.com)
RATING: FRT; deals with character deaths.
CLASSIFICATION: Angel POV
SPOILERS: Set in the future, so season 4 spoilers, but sort of vaguely.
DISTRIBUTION: Any sites with my fic up; you all have unspoken permission. I write it, you can post it. Everyone else just keep my name on it and let me know.
DISCLAIMER: If you don't recognize it, chances are it's my own creation. If you do, Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Kazui Sandollar, FOX and the WB own it or them. I'm just holding Spike and Riley hostage. Carolyn's got Xander, May's got Oz, Cathryn's got Ethan, Melissa has Giles, Shelly has Angel, and Gillian has Doyle. You may see them by appointment only.
FEEDBACK: Sorry I'm not home right now I'm walking in the spiderwebs so leave a message and I'll call you back...in other words, I want it. Don't care if it's onlist or not.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I decided this will be my day to finish series. So...the end is coming! ::snicker::

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No more funerals, damn it. No more.

I thought we'd all go down in a blaze of glory! I mean, Xander's the only one who died in a battle. Then two suicides, one mugging, two deaths in a car accident...

And now there's four.

Buffy. Riley. Spike. And me.

And they're scattered, now. Buffy wants me to stay away. She's pushed Riley away, too; I heard he's been sent on assignment to Washington and he gladly went there. Maybe not gladly, maybe with some reluctance, but he did leave.

Spike's still in London. He's stayed there alone, ignoring phone calls and letters and e-mails. Only reason I know he's there is because some old minions see him hunting occasionally.

Even I'm alone again. Kate was killed in a police accident. I held her as she lost the blood from the bullet wound. And Wesley had a brain aneurysm...that was so sudden and out there that no one expected it. Must have been all the stress.

So I'm giving up. Finishing what I'd wanted to do that Christmas Day so long ago, at the mansion. The day it snowed in Sunnydale.

I'm standing up on the roof. Just a few more moments...the will's been written, Buffy gets everything. Who'd have thought she'd outlast us all?

Five...four...three...two...one...