About

I was a latecomer to the fandom all the way around, really.  I started watching the show during my first year of grad school, which was BtVS season 6; I had friends who had a Tuesday night "Buffy Night" get-together every week, and I never went because I didn't know anything about the show.  Then one night I was doing laundry and flipping channels and saw that the show was on and thought, "Why not?"  My first episode was Smashed; I can remember sitting there with my car keys in my hand from the last commercial break through the credits, absolutely breathless and just waiting for it to be over so I could hop in the car and head out to buy the DVDs.  A week of pretty much no sleep and constant Buffy watching followed, and I was at the next Buffy night with metaphorical bells.  I didn't really pursue anything about the show on the internet until I decided that spoilers were necessary if I was going to keep watching it with a group of people; even then, however, I stuck to a few of the spoiler sites and let that be it.

The world of fanfiction was really something that I didn’t even know existed until after I finished school and moved to NYC; I was (to phrase it leniently) poor and couldn't afford much of anything, but we had a phone line and my roommate had AOL. Score. I surfed about and found a few sites that I rather methodically read my way through, and then had a few more that got added to the list along the way.  The list steadily got longer and longer, and then in February of 2005 I finally decided to go out on a limb and volunteer as a beta as a way to give back a little to the community I'd been enjoying so much.  I had no inclination to write at that point, and had never really thought of myself as a creative writer, but I was challenged that very first night by a friend to at least give it a chance.  I started my first story, Fear in a Handful of Dust, the next evening, posted once I had a few chapters under my belt, and from there never really looked back.

I started as a Buffy/Spike shipper, and I still am to a fair extent; shortly after I started writing, however, I started experimenting with other characters and other pairings, and those are interests that I happily continue to pursue.  Most of my stories are Spike-centric, although I have a growing number of non-Spike stories as well; the first non-Spike-involved story I wrote was a Wes/Lilah PWP called A Smaller God.  From the writing of that piece on, I’ve just followed my instincts and my desires in terms of stories I want to tell; if it strikes a chord with me or moves into my head in any small way, it finds its way onto the computer screen.  I can honestly say that there’s not a character I don’t love or find interesting or that I’m not willing to explore.

The ship stories that I’m proudest of are All the Sinners Saints, my Spike/Faith permanent Work in Progress series; By Way of Pain, which is Spike/Dru, Spike/Buffy, and Spike character study all neatly packaged into a BDSM wrapper; Reclamation, a Spike/Buffy PWP that brings a fair share of plot alongside; and the series I’ve just finished, entitled Whispers in a Dead Man’s Ear, which is also Spike/Buffy.  I’ve also written a whole host of single-character or non-ship short fictions that I’m really proud of, particularly Carry On, My Wayward Son, which is a story that alternates POVs between Angel and his father.  Additionally, I’ve recently ventured into slash, which has been an interesting sort of perspective shift for me.

In terms of other authors, I can’t even begin to list everyone I’ve read who’s influenced me somehow or whose work I enjoy.  It’s so gratifying to me to be in a community like the Buffy fandom, and I really can’t say enough about the people I’ve met, the authors whose work I’ve read or the readers who’ve enjoyed mine and who have become friends.  The links page here is a pretty comprehensive list of authors and sites that I enjoy.

(Current as of 12/16/2005)

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